Monday, March 30, 2020

A Tribute to My Floyd

            

            With memories and anecdotes pouring in from across the world over the last few days, it is hard to ignore the countless lives that Chef Floyd must’ve touched deeply in his time. Whether you were his childhood buddy growing up in the bylanes of Bandra, a fellow classmate in Dadar Catering College, a line cook in the banquet kitchen at Taj Mahal Palace, perhaps even a teacher at Les Roches in Switzerland where he studied hospitality management, or one of the many cooks honed in his kitchens at Lespinasse, Tabla, North End Grill, White Street or Paowalla, the chances are that he left a lasting impression on you. For a man whose life took him across various continents and with a career that spans close to four decades, I doubt I could do justice writing about his life before I knew him. So I’ll keep this one personal. This is my Floyd story.

Although I did spend three years in New York from 2007 to 2010, studying at the Culinary Institute of America first and then working at Le Bernardin, I never met Chef Floyd who’d already been a long time resident of the city. Incidentally, my stint at Le Bernardin was in the same year that his magnum opus Tabla shut its doors. I had never eaten there and upon hearing the news of its closing, I decided to grab my last chance to try the place. I remember sliding onto a stool at the casual Bread Bar on the ground level of the restaurant on a pleasant fall evening in late 2010. I couldn’t quite afford the upstairs dining room on a line cook’s salary in NYC and the Bread Bar was known to be more approachable and fun. 

To be completely honest, as a young, naïve 24 year-old cook sitting there sifting through his menu, I didn’t quite understand the food at Tabla. Chef Floyd’s menu of Indian-inspired American fare, or was it the other way around, seemed alien to me. I was raw, unseasoned and brainwashed like most other aspiring Indian chefs into thinking that classic and modern Western cooking was the Holy Grail. Indian food wasn’t worth indulging your career in, chimed peers and professors alike. I failed to recognize - let alone appreciate - the new language he had created for Indian food in mainstream restaurants. His philosophy involved adapting and evolving the cuisine without taking away the integrity and soul of the source inspiration, not very different from the way food cooked in home kitchens across India had evolved over decades. My ignorance aside, it was indeed a mindblowing meal although I didn’t end up meeting him that night.

Fast-forward four years to early 2014. I had just returned from a four-month long sabbatical eating my way through Europe to my sous chef job in a modern European restaurant in Mumbai. A trip that was meant for inspiration changed the course of my life thanks to a moment of epiphany I had while dining at the world renowned Osteria Francescana. Suddenly, in a moment of clarity, I knew I needed to shift my career focus towards Indian. Meanwhile, almost serendipitously, there were three gentlemen who were conspiring to open a modern Indian restaurant in Mumbai and needed an executive chef to helm the kitchen.

The city was already abuzz of this upcoming restaurant opening. “A touted Indian chef from New York (we’re not at liberty to reveal his identity) in partnership with restaurateurs Sameer Seth and Yash Bhanage (they’ve set up places in Delhi and Singapore) is looking to open Tiffin Club here by August,” one article reported. The original inspiration for The Bombay Canteen came from the clubs and gymkhanas of a bygone era of Bombay, hence the first name idea of Tiffin Club.

I had already put in a three-month resignation notice at my job when they approached me through a headhunter. Five minutes into my first conversation with Sameer, I was sold on his pitch. When I found out that the touted chef was Floyd Cardoz, I was a little intimidated. I had heard of Chef Floyd’s reputation as being a tough, hard-to-impress industry stalwart and with my limited experience cooking Indian food professionally, I wasn’t sure I even had a chance at bagging this role. But I so badly wanted it. I knew this would be my big break.

I remember the first Skype interview I had with Chef Floyd in April 2014. Something about his demeanour made me feel instantly at ease. I wondered if the years had softened his rough edges or if people had just falsely assumed that he was tough. Our conversation was mostly casual with no technical questions whatsoever. I remember being surprised to see the childlike sparkle in his eyes as he spoke about the potential of celebrating underrepresented regional Indian food through this restaurant we were about to open.



Over the next several months, the four of us business partners - Floyd, Sameer, Yash and I - spent a lot of time together, traveling, eating, recipe-testing and bouncing ideas off each other for what was to materialize into The Bombay Canteen. I even made a trip to New York to spend some quality time with Floyd. While half of this visit was dedicated to his kitchen at White Street to understand his operating style, it was the remaining time as his house guest that got us close. Not just did we test recipes in his home kitchen, but I also helped clean, walk his dog Shadow, and went out on grocery runs together. With this new role as Executive Chef of The Bombay Canteen, I was pretty much thrown in the deep end but Floyd was there as a guiding figure every step of the way to help me swim.






In the years that followed, I got to know and understand this celebrated chef better, but also quite differently from how the rest of the world perceived him. Whether during our weekly update calls or on one of his quarterly trips to Mumbai, the four of us partners became a close-knit family. The way we conducted ourselves around each other was more like high school besties rather than business partners or colleagues. In spite of the age difference--the three of us in our early thirties and Floyd in his late fifties-- it just felt so right. In fact, if anything, Floyd was always the mischievous teenager in the group cracking jokes to lighten the mood or bursting with his contagious energy. 

Chef Floyd was an emotionally expressive man who always wore his feelings on his sleeve. He could be really stubborn about things he believed in, but opinions around the table were always heard. He saw the bigger picture but also cherished the finer details. Despite living in a different continent, Floyd loved to be continuously cued in to what was happening at Hunger Inc in Bombay. In fact, he insisted on wanting to be a part of not just the bigger decisions but also knowing the most trivial daily occurences at the company. He was more proud of what we had achieved through The Bombay Canteen, O Pedro and Bombay Sweet Shop than the remaining three of us combined, and always pointed out how we don’t take enough credit for our laurels.

Floyd and I have traveled together on food trips far and wide. From Goa to Portugal or Kolkata to Cochin, culinary adventure was our common addiction. In November last year, I had the honor of cooking alongside him at the prestigious James Beard House in New York, an opportunity of a lifetime really. Soon after, we spent a whole week together presenting at the CIA Worlds of Flavor conference in Napa spreading that same message of celebrating traditional Indian food. I was in awe of this man who showed no signs of fatigue talking up Indian food for nearly 25 years, and still continuing to sing praise of our country’s rich cuisines with the same vigor of someone who’d just discovered its potential.





It’s not often that you get to cook alongside a legend, and with our relationship maturing into a unique blend of friendship interspersed with mentorship, it was all the more memorable. That same week found us eating in some fantastic restaurants, downing wines at local vineyards, and just going on long beautiful drives in the countryside. I remember making a mental note that despite all the ups and downs in his life, Chef Floyd seemed so truly happy and content. What really took me by surprise on this West coast sojourn however were the reactions he got wherever we went. I was aware that he was a well known figure but the respect, adulation and love he got wherever we went from local bakeries to high end restaurants was nothing short of revelatory. I couldn’t help but smile at what a legacy he had already left behind.

Floyd was deeply fond of teaching and mentorship, so it’s only fair that I use this opportunity to talk about some of the lessons that I took away from him.  Don’t be a No person. There will be multiple challenges and opportunities that are constantly thrown at you in life, and instead of turning them down immediately, analyze and introspect before making decisions. Keep your childlike wonder because there’s a lot more joy you can derive from the world than you would imagine.Stand up for what you believe in and be true to yourself. He was a total no-bullshit kinda guy. Believe in the team.“Building a stronger team will make you stronger as a chef,” he’d once said. Moral values have their place everywhere, even in the kitchen. You can nurture people into cooking good food without being an asshole to them. Be the bigger person, when people or situations turn against you. Floyd was a vocal proponent of balance in food through textures and flavors, but he also demonstrated that in his personal life, leading by example and being as much a family man as he was a chef. 

On the night of his passing, after a few hours of delirious crying and screaming in the lone confines of my apartment, I walked into my kitchen, pulled out a stash of Goan choriz I’d been saving and just cooked freestyle. That was my way of coping, I guess. All our times together flashed before me as I smelt the smokey goodness from the sausage filling up the room. I added some dried beans, onions, garlic, and bay leaves and it turned into a sort of delicious Southern American chili but with Goan choriz instead of meat mince. Topped with a couple of fried eggs and some braised poi saag I’d made earlier, this was my attempt at a tribute meal. Floyd would’ve loved this, I thought. 

It still hasn't fully sunken in for me that he’s no more. Being someone who’s terrible at grieving, I hark back to all the tough times Floyd has gone through in his own life. Just thinking of his resilience in times of adversity gives me some strength to at least begin to cope with this deep loss. A couple of days ago, a close friend pointed out that Chef Floyd and I shared a faint physical resemblance, like he could easily be someone from my family. It’s hard to argue that in so many ways, because he truly was.

43 comments:

  1. This is beautiful. Sorry for your loss and hope every meal you cook in celebration and memory of him slowly fills the void, or at least makes you cope...one plate at a time.

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  2. Chef, I respect you the same way you respect Chef Floyd. I am sorry for the loss. Much power to you and much peace to him.

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  3. A beautiful tribute.. May his soul rest in peace.. I'm sure the gods are in for a real treat up there :)

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  4. Chef, I respect you the same way you respect Chef Floyd. I am sorry for the loss. Much power to you and much peace to him.

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  5. This is truly a beautiful tribute. I'm sorry for your loss and a loss that the world has yet to come to terms with. I hope you find the strength and resilience that you saw in your mentor to help you cope through this difficult phase. Continue his legacy and he shall be a proud mentor (I'm sure he already was) smiling at you from the heavens above.
    Just a suggestion.. You can extend your tribute by naming the dish you created after him and keeping it as a permanent feature on The Bombay Canteen menu.

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  6. Really touching tribute! Extremely sorry for your loss and my deepest condolences.

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  7. Sorry for your loss Chef Zac....People close to one's heart ...dont die...they live on....
    My condolences
    Sapna Bangera

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  8. This is beautiful and terribly sad. It's painful to read as someone who doesn't know either of you personally. Can only imagine the pain it is to experience it. Sending my love and deepest condolences for your loss. Thank you for sharing.

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  9. Celebrate every meal. That's the best way we can bid adieu to this noble soul.

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  10. Sorry for your loss chef! You indeed resemble him in a lot of ways. Everything happens for a reason and time will heal everything one day. I hope God gives you all the strength to cope up with this great loss!

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  11. Good mentor ❤️ Heart touching tribute !

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  12. Am so so sorry chef. My deepest condolences. What wonderful memories to treasure. Sending you love and peace.

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  13. So sorry for your loss. This is a beautiful tribute. I'm sure you will carry on and do ample justice to his legacy.

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  14. Keep celebrating him through every dish you cook. I am sure you will make him more happy. Stay strong, smile and create poetry through food, for him, for yourself. God bless you. ��

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  15. This was truly a beautiful tribute. So sorry for your loss.

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  16. I am really sorry for your loss... i feel you are really lucky to have known him so closely... thanks for letting us into ur lives with this beautiful write up.... stay strong !!!

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  17. This sounds very hard for you bro. Please take care

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  18. A legend has been taken away to a better place. I feel lucky to have met Chef Floyd and learn from him for a brief period. He has since been my inspiration , a person who I look up to from afar. His legacy must continue. May god give you the strength and courage to keep his mission alive.

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  19. Sending you love and a big hug Chef. ❤️

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  20. His legacy will live with you each day in all your culinary creations. Sending you love and a big hug Chef ❤️

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  21. My first intro to Floyd Cardoz was through Top Chef Masters. We could never afford to go out often let alone go out to fancy restaurants. So Tabla, I never heard of until Top Chef. Since then, I have followed Floyd in all his endeavors. My fave people to follow on social media have been you two. For two people who really are helping put Indian food and culture on the map. My daughters and I went to Bombay Bread Bar before it closed and my daughter and I went to the O Pedro at Intersect in NYC. I was a fan, you have helped propel his legacy forward and I know you will continue to do so. Do the good work you are doing and Floyd's soul will be happy. I am proud to "know" you both and am awaiting all the great things you do honoring Floyd's life and his legacy! #proudbrowngirl #proudMalayalee

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  22. A beautiful memoir! Chef Floyd will be missed. His legacy will live through your work. Sending you lots of love ❤️

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  23. What beautiful memories...and beautifully penned down. Some people come into your life to change it forever. What a privilege to find a mentor and friend like this. I am sure you will carry on his legacy.

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  24. Beautifully penned. I can not even begin to imagine your pain, as big as the loss is for the food community at large. Floyd is deeply loved and shall always be remembered thus.

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  25. This is soul stirring. Thank you for penning down this beautiful. His legacy will live on through his restaurants and you. Sending you lots of love and my deepest condolences <3

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  26. This is beautiful Chef ... you’ve done good justice to all that he meant and despite me ,being someone who hasn’t been anywhere close to being associated to either of you ,even remotely, I feel the pain of a friend . Thank you for taking people like me through the journey of Chef Flyod in your own style ... it’s beautiful , heart touching ... RIP Chef Floyd ��

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  27. A beautiful tribute Thomas. Sharing this so this reaches more people. Will hold Floyd close in memories of legends who I had desperately wanted to meet and be awestruck.

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  28. �� sad,poignant and beautiful tribute. Skies are flavorwala now.
    Great fan of The Bombay canteen. Sad for your loss.
    Love , prayers and strength for you all. ⚘

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  29. Very sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you. May God bless us all!

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  30. beautiful - together you all have brought a lot of joy and artistry to Mumbai. Keep his legacy going. best.

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  31. It still feels unreal... I'm glad that you met chef Floyd. Cause no one better than you to keep his vision alive... Very touching tribute. Gave us a glimpse of Chef from close... More power to you too keep shining cheftzac

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  32. Nothing hurts more than this & your tribute makes it even more painful. Rest in peace Floyd.

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  33. This is heartbreaking chef!! I feel a bit unlucky of not meeting him and only hearing about his legacy. Guess will have to do more good karma to come in contact with such souls. But for what it takes the way you guys look upto chef flyod i look upto you...and am on my path of discovering indian cuisine and cooking only being inspired by you!! You will surely keep his legacy on and high!! RIP chef flyod!! And take care chef tzac!!

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  34. Superb tribute to a wonderful man. I am sure he will be proud of the work you will do in cherishing his legacy

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  35. He was and is a beautiful force of life and will always be.You will carry his true essence in your heart and carry his legacy forward.Thanks for this beautiful post.

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